I am doing well, and thanks for worrying.
My kinky mojo has returned after I sat for a couple of days with the reasoning in my last post about the issues. (It was helped on its way by a certain friend whom I shall not name, who cyber-scened with me on Messenger last night!)
I recall seeing somewhere (it may have been on 'QI', although I had possibly seen it before in New Scientist) that research suggests that everyone has a pretty much fixed level of overall happiness, and even really drastic good or bad events in a person's life only shift it for a short time, and after a week or two it returns back to the normal level, as the person adapts to the consequences of the event. It is kind of negative to think that you can't really make yourself that much happier in life if you start out gloomy, but in a way it is also quite reassuring to know that it all balances out by itself after the scales get tipped one way or the other. It makes it okay to ride out the emotions when they come and to me that feels like being true to myself and not having to hold back. In fact, this was one of the sure signs of serious depression - that the scales were being tipped to such an extent that natural balance wasn't returning on its own, and I was not feeling anything much except darkness and mugginess.
I can be a bit of a drama-queen and may just possibly have the tendency to make a drama out of a crisis such as this. I am not downplaying the emotions I felt, of course, and neither would I downplay the nature of the stuff that got dug up. But all-in-all, with a little help from caring people, it worked out okay, and I feel that I am coming out the other side stronger that I was before, and that a weak point in the structure has been exposed, remedied and made good.
This is the positive aspect of the Tower in tarot, which is a sudden bolt from the blue that seemingly renders all in ruin, but actually often breaks an old imprisoning chain and has positive long-term effects.
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